Intentions

I recently have been contemplating 2010. What were my goals? Why in the world do I think so much? What am I going to do with the rest of the year?? How does it all fit together? I think I found a website that for the time being is going to help me break out of the comfortable place I feel I am in. Unfortunately, it is a comfortable place of negativity.

Most people who know me, think of me as a positive person... usually happy go lucky; voted by my high school class as "Best Smile" "Happiest Heart" . I don't want to be back in that 80's mode for sure, but I do want to recapture that person I was. I discovered this website called intent.com . Everyday (or however often you think it might be needed) you create an intent. It can be as simple as "to greet everyone with a smile" or " let joy fill my day". It is amazing when you post it, and check out other peoples intents how it does seem to remind you that you are not alone with your feelings. Quite often people will make comments . It is especially gratifying when someone "supports" your intent. Makes you feel like someone is listening too.

Quite a great start to October 2010 now isn't it? Hope we can continue on ... letting go of things we can't control, and making new intents based on living in the right now.

Today I Will Make A Difference

Today I will make a difference.

I will begin by controlling my thoughts. A person is the product of his thoughts. I want to be happy and hopeful. Therefore, I will have thoughts that are happy and hopeful. I refuse to be victimized by my circumstances. I will not let petty inconveniences such as stoplights, long lines and traffic jams be my masters. I will avoid negativism and gossip. Optimism will be my companion, and victory will be my hallmark.

Today, I will make a difference.

I will be grateful for the twenty-four hours that are before me. Time is a precious commodity. I refuse to allow what little time I have to be contaminated by self pity, anxiety or boredom. I will face this day with the joy of a child and the courage of a giant. I will drink each minute as though it is my last. When tomorrow comes, today will be gone forever. While it is here, I will use it for loving and giving.

Today, I will make a difference.

I will not let past failures haunt me. Even though my life is scarred with mistakes, I refuse to rummage through my trash heap of failures. I will admit them. I will correct them. I will press on... victoriously. No failure is fatal. It's OK to stumble... I will get up. It's OK to fail... I will rise again.

Today, I will make a difference.

I will spend time with those I love. My spouse, my children, my family. A man can own the world but be poor for the lack of love. A man can own nothing and yet be wealthy in relationships. Today, I will spend at least five minutes with the people who are significant in my world. Five quality minutes of talking or hugging or thanking or listening. Five undiluted minutes with my mate, children, friends.

Today, I will make a difference.

Max Lucado

August 2010

Starfish are amazing sea animals. They are actually called sea stars and are only found in salt water. If a starfish loses an arm, it is actually capable of regenerating that arm!! Amazing to think about.

I look back at the last post I had written. It was August 2009 and I was facing some difficulties in my life and dreading the next year. So almost one year later I am now starting to write and create once more. I am confident that the rest of 2010 will be a new beginning for me. Since i love the beach and all that is in it, I have "adopted" the starfish as my own. I know that parts of me can grow back and regenerate and I can be whole again.

Let the journey begin.

Trying to Write

Lately I have been stumped. It seems like I cannot think of what to write, is it too boring? is it something that I really need to get out of my system? Why do I over think so many things? I am going to work on just writing whatever I am thinking at the time, whether it is all connected or not.

When my best friend Anita was visiting, she had asked me to try some color therapy. She gave me some crayons and told me to color how I was feeling. At the time, all I could do was grab the black and just press down hard on the paper, coloring it fiercely, not all inside the lines, and rather loud looking. I was actually surprised at the response because whether it seems like it or not, I do have a bit of trouble verbalizing feelings sometimes, but evidentally not expressing them. So tonight I thought about it again and decided to color how I was feeling by the end of my very hectic day. I was surprised that I picked orange and yellow, a little black around the edges, but mostly soothing warm colors. Maybe it is because I was so encouraged by the blogspot of Ann Voskamp called http://www.aholyexperience.com/ . The gratitude list is something I am really going to strive to do: 1000 gratitude gifts. I suppose I will keep it at home in a journal, not really sure if I will be able to write every day, but at least attempting to be grateful, like my mom always encourages me to do, so I can experience the joy I know I have in my life.

I am Grateful for the beautiful sunset again this evening, and as the sun went down the full moon was amazing and bright, like a happy face. God loves to give us such beauty all around.

Tomorrow is a new day!

Paint the World

life

is a train of moods like a string of beads;

and as we pass through them they prove to be many colored lenses,

which paint the world their own hue,

and each shows us only what lies in its own focus.

~ ralph waldo emerson ~

Quiet Sunday

“We need to find God,

and He cannot be found in noise and restlessness.

God is the friend of silence.

See how nature - trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence;

see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence...

We need silence to be able to touch souls.”

~

Mother Theresa

Blank

It has been awhile since I have blogged. It seems I am more secure lately, just reading others posts and gleaning a bit from what they have written flowing from their fingertips. I am not sure why, maybe I have been feeling blank. Not depressed or sad, just not having anything to say.

I am hoping that in the next few days I can get re-energized and become a color again... maybe green ~ soothing and cool; or maybe a steady friendly blue like turquoise . Who knows. A different perspective is always nice.